Friday, 28 June 2013

Here we go!

Okay. For the past three years, and particularly the past year, I've wanted to start a proper, grown-up blog. 'But blogs aren't for grown-ups!' I hear the small minded of you cry. 'They're for whiny teenagers with too many feelings and not enough common sense!' Well, you're wrong. In fact loads of grown-ups have blogs. Like me.

However, for the past three years I've not really known what to write about. And I think to be honest, this is because I've had a lot of stuff going on home. The sort of stuff you don't want the world to know, but it takes over your personal life, so there's not much else you can think about. So you understand why I've found it difficult to write.

Now, all that stuff has gone away, and as soon as it did, it felt like when you pretty much inhale your favourite meal when you hadn't even realised how hungry you were. It was kind of like I was Truman Burbank leaving Seahaven Island. I didn't know how trapped I was before, but suddenly I can do anything. I can go anywhere. I had wanted to look for jobs in other cities but I couldn't leave home. I had wanted to get my own place. Now, I'm torn between finding my perfect job and just moving to Germany for a month. And now I've realised, I can write whatever my heart desires.

The only thing is though, this stuff stopped me from doing stuff like finding work experience/internships, thinking about what I want to do for a career. And as such I've ended up in a dead end job, where I'm constantly requesting more work to do outside the remit of my dull as dishwater role, and it's only now that I've realised that I want to go into advertising.

One thing I'm proud of, is that I went to university at all. It's a bloody good university at that. And I got a good degree! I'm the first (and for the forseeable future, the only) person in my extended family to go to university. It might not mean that much in the current climate, but it's a massive achievement for me. I'm from a council estate in Salford and I genuinely didn't even know what an internship was until my third year of university. Until now, taking unpaid work experience was not an option because my finances don't work that way. They still don't really, but suddenly that matters to me a lot less.

I might not have been able to make any real headway towards my career over the past few years, but now I'm so ready to become the grown-up I'm meant to be. There's nothing stopping me but myself. Some of my friends have already made successes of themselves, and I couldn't be more proud of them! And insanely jealous of course. But I know I'll be there one day.

Over the course of this blog you'll hear a little bit more about my friends and what they're doing for themselves, and you'll probably learn way too much about me. But for the first time in years I feel like I can talk again, and it's going to be a struggle to shut me up.